It’s so easy to be dulled by the monotonous of the day-to-day or overwhelmed at the seemingly challenging task before us – both of which don’t quite allow us to face the waves of emotions that come as we navigate the waters of adoption. In essense, it’s been hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
We had a couple of days this past week to spend time away together as a couple, driving together for hours at a time and talking through issues in our marriage, frustrations of infertility and adoption, and how failing to trust and worship God amidst this leads to living for ourselves. A few days before our vacation, we received a message about a sibling group looking for a family – an 8 year old girl and her baby brother. I remember the excitement I had just in hearing about this possibility – at last, something tangible I could see after weeks of online education. It reminded me that this journey will come to fruition one day, and that the path there is a valuable and necessary one.
And so, I needed to remember all of the things that God has given us – ways He has provided for us:
- He has given us BOTH a heart for adoption, something that is rare and of which I am ever grateful for
- He has provided contacts for us of EVERY type of adoption: international, ministry & aboriginal, local infant, ministry sibling group not aboriginal, and lastly, embryo adoption. Although we did not previously know any of these couples, they were all friends of friends, introduced through word of mouth. We never had to reach out online or through an adoption agency.
- He has given us peace and reassurance along the way in ruling out options in the meantime, with our family’s blessing too!
- He has taken my mourning and turned it into gladness. I remember half a year ago, while sitting in Honey’s donuts that I had this moment of self-pity and grieving as I saw a new mother embracing her newborn, knowing that I would likely never have the opportunity of naming my child or even raising my child from birth. But then it suddenly got replaced by the notion that somewhere out there a child was also seeing the same scene, aching for a family of their own and wishing to be loved. I knew that my feelings were valid, but that they truly are surpassed by those of a child longing for a home.
- He has given us this option of embryo adoption, one that we had heard of before but didn’t think was possible as it is not legal in Canada.
- He has provided us with the financial means to pursue (almost) any type of adoption
- He reminds me again and again, through tears and conviction, His heart for adoption, for caring for orphans, and the church’s role in establishing His kingdom here in this way
“He defends the cause of the fatherless and the widow, and loves the foreigner residing among you, giving them food and clothing.” – Deuteronomy 10:18